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Was shocked to see my last activity was nearly a year ago. I've had a very difficult time since early 2011 following the death of my father who was a primary abuser in my life. Had to deal with issues that had never surfaced previously. I've just completed working through a second wave of internal backlash. It is settling down now and the end of the month I am looking forward to having my final medical issue repaired. Since Friday I've been watching the specials on 9/11, especially the information that was hidden in 2001 but now public. I also think I dissociated the event after living it along with the rest of the world that day live on television. Was glad to see the invitation to the 9/11 Intention Experiment and have signed up. A...

Would like to apologize for my lack of presence once again. Had started to ease back in but had a setback. Have been active on Facebook where there is a rather large, active, and supportive trauma survivors group, many with DID. I haven't been accepting new friend requests because I'm just not here. It's still on the agenda though. My big news is I'm submitting a proposal to speak at a national conference on mental health. A few "laypersons" are selected and I would love to have a national audience to educate re dissociation and its strong tie to organized pedophilia. Any thoughts, prayers, or energy to help me be selected in that regard would be much welcome. Missing this community. Grace

I just wrote a long journal entry and somehow managed to erase it. I was here. Too tired to recreate my sharing.

Almost fainted when saw my last post was December 2008. I lose track/sense of time. Since December 2008, I have been living on Polyvore.com (grace2244) running an art therapy group for others with a trauma background. I also process my own stuff. The wonderful side effect is that I have also grown to be artistic and apparently am pretty good. Have always wished I had a higher developed artistic side. After more than 12 years of healing, still I am getting answers and working through layers of trauma although my personal process is much less emotional and difficult as those earlier years. My energy for advocacy sort of disappeared but will send an art set to twitter if it is a message that advocates for fighting child exploitation or will...

I am truly sorry I've had such a long absence from this community. Why is it that during the roughest times, what we most need is sacrificed? My spirit needs nourishment and my brain needs a focus other than my own recovery and educating about abuse. Time management is something I need to relearn. Will be making an earnest effort to visit several times a week. I need this. I did post a new entry to the group on Child Safety. It applies to all children--not just the topic of dissociation. It's rather terrifying really. I'm in the process of working with therapists worldwide through my listservs to gather terms that have arisen during their work with survivors. My health has reached a turning point. I'm now moving forward with a...

Somehow I missed the greater world between Wed, Sept 24 and yesterday. This is part of what remains after healing from DID. It's not a bad thing. It's a weird thing. My focus was so great on writing about legislation that had passed to help exploited children and producing my video, I zoned out for routine life. I recall checking my cell phone two days ago and seeing I had 7 voicemails which overwhelmed me, so I didn't listen to them. Yesterday, on the way to the dentist, I listened. They began last Wednesday. I was briefly disoriented...confused...that the first message was five days ago. I don't remember the phone ringing. I do know that a particular event about a month ago caused a surge in me to become an advocate rather aggress...

This is the intro to Oriah's book. IMO it is breathtaking every time I read it. The Invitation   Oriah Mountain Dreamer Canadian Teacher and Author   It doesn't interest me what you do for a living I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dreams for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fe...

I used to have a lovely book called The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer. I must have loaned it to a client...forever. The first pages are a beautifully written guide to living and loving. Wish I could quote from it now. I am so moved by this community. I arrived here seeking balance to the world where I immerse myself in education about the worst form of child abuse. I've been intentionally quiet on that topic here, a stark contrast to my approach as Crusader Rabbit on my steed trying to make the world hear. Since last night, I have received two invitations from new friends asking if I would introduce this community to that evil world and help you understand the greater social issues and devastation to current and future genera...

A few years ago I found a really neat website. If you provided a word or phrase, they would create the Chinese character(s) handpainted on scroll paper ready to be framed. The first one I ordered was my reminder TO BE. I hung it in my therapy office. It was for me and my clients. In between clients, it was essential for me to find that quiet place of being to unwind before I could totally focus on the next person. Now that I no longer have an office (at least until I secure a new practice affiliation), my art is home. I found the perfect frame to place it in my living room where I see it most of the day. Very important "to be". My best friend Mana lives to teach resilience. For Christmas, I framed the Chinese character for her favor...

I belong here. I need to be here. I was led here. My hope for being part of The Intention Experiment website was to engage in discussions such as I see here--and expand my thought universe.  Other journals from CopperStrings appear more sophisticated but, for now, my brain is at this level. I've been feeling very unbalanced in my life recently being so focused on my serious cause. I've missed my connection to simply being. My singing bowl has been silent. My white sage has gone unburned. My daily inner world time has been sacrificed to outer world passion. CopperStrings feels like home. Thank you for creating this environment.